No happiness today... may be tommorow...

 My Gtalk status read "Smile.... cause happiness could return today... it should......."

Today, i waited for long... but oh aayi hi nahi.. happiness so strange .. haina?

I was waiting in anticipation since this morning.. it was kind of a wait ... a hope .... may be she was busy elsewhere...

Now this happiness is such a sweet little thing ki its difficult to live without.. no matter what happens .. the yearning remains...

so even as i thought it could return today.. in hearts of my heart i hoped it should ... Alas, Kash it happens...

After a long wait ... i decided to call upon her this evening... from my heart i called upon her... may be she wud hear ... but...she didnt respond

So i just left her a message

"wondering if u wud be around today..........

?????

and hoping u wud be"

Happiness once said .. she cant see me sad … and now she’s not around…. funny na…. J

but koi na no worries... i hope it comes along tomorrow... and gets me to that smile...

Tum: Tum bhi na pagal ho.....

Hum: Tum ya hum.....??

 

No happiness today.... may be tommorow...

My Gtalk status read "Smile.... cause happiness could return today... it should......."

Today, i waited for long... but oh aayi hi nahi.. happiness so strange .. haina?

I was waiting in anticipation since this morning.. it was kind of a wait ... a hope .... may be she was busy elsewhere...

Now this happiness is such a sweet little thing ki its difficult to live without.. no matter what happens .. the yearning remains...

so even as i thought it could return today.. in hearts of my heart i hoped it should ... Alas, Kash it happens...

After a long wait ... i decided to call upon her this evening... from my heart i called upon her... may be she wud hear ... but...she didnt respond

So i just left her a message

"wondering if u wud be around today..........

?????

and hoping u wud be"

but koi na no worries... i hope it comes along tommorow... and gets me to that smile...

Tum: Tum bhi na pagal ho.....

Hum: Tum ya hum.....??

Koi yeh kaise bataeee.....ki woh tanha kyun hai

Loneliness.... a feeling so hard to explain...and even harder to reason out... means how can one say why one is sooo lonely...

today m feeling the same... i feel like a single man standing on this big big earth and everything else just moving around... i can feel the love of people who love me... but.......

may be its lack of someone to talk to....dnt know

Infact may be m pissed off with the world...means how can someone be soooo materialistic.. and that someone being the whole world...

damm the world which values a diamond more than the tears of heart.....

truly speaking i wud prefer a hazar times asking God ji to let me die in love than asking him to make me rich enough so that i can gift the people around lots of gift

My cousin got married and surprisingly the things most discussed is gifts exchanged... come on how does it matter.... there are things more important happening... 

I love my Mom in this regards ... shes so positive ... she sees the good part in the things and appretiates the efforts well done ... my dad as well is very understanding and understands the things over so called materialistic things .. m lucky to have them.... 

Rab ji duniya aisi kyun banaee............................................................................

@#@$~!!#$% thats life.....

So many attempts so many guesses so many wishful thinkings..... yet means how strange it is...thats why everyone is living in a dreamof his or her own...

means I dont know how life is different from a dream...and u know what

has been long since I talked to tum.... or rather lived the dream rather than real life

u know what tum, i dont have words to say what m really feeling... thats why feelings and not words....

but yesterday I watched a movie, a man gonna die in a few dayz.... gets to understand ... how simples things cud be.... frankly I found the movie a bit blunt.. talked directly to my heart.,... means a friend goes to his friend to meet him as one of his last 10 wishes and his the people think hes around for a help in terms of money.... how shameful can a human mind and heart be when it thinks that "practically"...

and then when the man asks his brother.... i kind of remember the exact conversation. He asks his brother to put up with his own mom.... and his bro asks... if u need help asistance........ pitiful pitiful for that mom who has such a son and the son who cant appreciate such a wonderful thing called mom

tum, why is the world the way it is ... why cant people be good and when they are why they have to behave more practically.... why has life to be different from a dream..... alas....

Tum:...........................................................................................................

And  u know what tum, things were so very different ... a small thingh like getting a leave approved.... made me so happy.... I just felt like talking to someone and telling them.... 

means how small things matter..... in such a big big life........

Tum:...........................................................................................................

u know what tum... ur silence says soooooo much ....

hmm.......... @#@$~!!#$% .........thats life.....